| | It's about time that I update this thing, which obviously, I don't do as often... the last time I actually wrote anything was in January... wow. I've been well and hopefully you have been as well... even though I really have no idea who reads this anymore... It's okay though since for me, it's time for another thought release... hehe...
So I haven't written anything here since like... my birthday. Since then, stuff has been pretty good... I changed majors (even though not officially yet...) and I must admit, it's relieving. I don't feel that studying is that much of a chore anymore because I'm actually interested in what I was learning about. Even though I didn't get the grades that I really wanted last semester, it just means that there is always room for me to improve. The grades that I got are encouraging me to improve myself, not bring myself down. I know I can do better.
I didn't tell my parents about my switch until around the end of last spring... I didn't mean to keep them in the dark about it because I was afraid of the reaction they would have when I would tell them that I changed my mind about pharmacy and decided to become a teacher. Surprisingly enough, they were really receptive to it. I'm happy to have parents that are encouraging me to strive for something that I want to be and not for their prize daughter that they imagined in their minds when I was born.
Also about last semester... I felt that I lost something... a really close friend of mine. For a while, I thought that we were inseparable, but now that's not the case. I don't even feel that we're friends anymore... more like long time acquaintances. Anyway, I won't dwell on that too long because it makes me sad.
On a happier note, I found my first two jobs at the end of the spring semester, the one at a learning center and the tourist location job. Before that, I was just doing volunteer stuff to keep myself a bit busy... trust me, it always felt like I had a lot of time on my hands. However, during the summer, because of these two jobs, I felt like I had no time to myself. Sure, my shifts were always around the same time every week, but I was at work every day. Having both of those jobs at the same time made me happy that I was making some use of my summer, but it made me sad because I couldn't just chill like everyone else. Any given time that I would hang out with people, I would have come straight from work in my uniform and most likely feeling a bit cranky. I was happy making money though... even though that does sound a bit greedy...
My greed may have led me towards money, but I have to say that I truly enjoy my job as an instructor's assistant at the learning center that I work at. The money didn't really matter to me, but I'll admit, it's a nice touch. The grading papers part is easy, but what I find the most valuable was the fact that I can help kids who are struggling with their work and feel good about it. Even though I am being paid to help them out, it's something I enjoy doing. Educated children is the gateway to our future, yes?
However, my feelings towards the tourist location job are much different. I don't think I have ever been so bitter towards anyone in my whole life... oh those tourists. For me, tourists are evil people. I know it sounds juvenile, but if you work that job, you'd understand where I'm coming from. To summarize it, they're a bunch of rude people who expect you to do whatever they say in a polite manner even if they treat you like crap. The job itself isn't bad, it's just the baggage that comes with it. It came to the point that recently, I told them that I have to quit for a bit because of school. I literally spent my whole weekend at work and couldn't get any work done for school because I was exhausted. It's also because I have been in conflict with the company's interests... but I won't get into that either. The decision to quit for the time being is probably better for me anyway because I don't want to have to force myself to stay up and study for who knows how long because I'm letting my greed get in the way of my education. It isn't going to happen.
The bright side of that job is that along the way, I have met a lot of great people who I can call my friends. I was actually talking to one of them yesterday because I wanted to tell someone that I wanted out, but didn't know how. I also became accustomed to talking to people that I have never met before, mainly because the job requires it. Before, I don't think I could ever do that because I generally have a shy nature... if you've ever met me, then you'd know.
Right now, all I really want to do is have a bit of fun while I'm studying... I wasn't able to do that when I was at work all the freaking time. I just don't want extra stress to be added onto me. I want to be happy this semester... can I do it? I hope so!
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